The Big Picture

I've been busy, so I haven't written many blog posts lately. I just finished writing my first screenplay. Something I did in my off hours from my regular work as a writer. It's about mothers and daughters, mostly, but there's plenty of romance, too. I'm hopin' it rocks those Hollywood readers and makes it to the big screen some day. There's a second one comin' up underneath about a Jesuit priest. Tonally different in every way. But still about parenting, unconditional love, sacrifice and irony. I see a thematic style here...

Spiritual Back Flip

I woke up two days ago in an ugly mood. Suddenly, the veil lifted from my eyes concerning my current, very controversial employer. I knew this employer had a sordid past, but I had managed to put it into a positive light for months. New beginnings. I was there to help.

But two days ago, I was in a dark funk. I allowed myself to sink into the emotional quicksand that must have swallowed most of the long-time employees. I hated everyone. I avoided people. I contemplated looking for a new job. I was unforgiving. The honeymoon was over.

But then, as always happens, the Universe came in and showed me why I was there. Magically, the whole situation did a backflip by the end of the afternoon, and I saw how much my being there positively affected the entire organization. Over the course of several months, God had systematically placed me in a unique position, so that I could touch many lives at the organization, all the way up to the new CEO. All of this without my understanding or assistance.

I'm a communicator by trade. I've had a variety of jobs in communications. Employee communications, of late. And lately, I take pics, too. God has cleverly had me taking pics of all the top execs at this 5,000-employee company. They see me and they do the double take...Now, how do I know her again?

So there I was, still in a dark, dark funk, on my way to an assignment. I had volunteered to take pics the week before, and I was angry with myself for doing so. Just as I was leaving one building to get to the next, who should show up? The two top men in the company. Grrrr. So I am now unintentionally parading the two of them across the long pedestrian bridge, across the massive lobby, and into the hall where hundreds of employees are gathering to hear them speak. They weren't quite sure which room, so I pointed them in the right direction, and I held the door for them when I arrived. The big guy seemed to remember me. He made a point of smiling and saying "hi." A look of recognition in his eyes. Asked me how I was. I was still in a funk, but I smiled brightly back, said I was fine. Well, that did it.

God has a sense of humor. Soon, I was taking photos, workin' the room, making people feel good about themselves, casting my light on the execs, the rank and file, the whole room. I had returned to love. Oh, He's a clever one.

Manifesting

Manifesting...or as my favorite astropersonality says...lightcasting...is so much fun. Take your challenges in life and turn them around. Convert them into affirmations, positive verbal expressions of what you KNOW to be your true path in life. Try it as an experiment. See what you can bring about out of spirit (or light). You will soon discover the power of your own words to manifest your experience here on the planet. And you'll discover that what you choose as your affirmation...I usually have a few going that I recite together...was truly your destiny all along. But now, you have become an active participant as a co-creator with God...an act of free will...directing your path. God wants to have relationship with you in His holy nature. We are not pawns in a game. We are more powerful in love and light...made in His image...truly children of God. We shall inherit the Earth.

New Year Challenges

Tidying up details of my recent past. Setting off in a major new direction, with my teachers and spiritual guides beside me. Pluto in my second house of personal values to stay for awhile, probably bringing me to the close of my time here on the planet, at end. Less is more. Refinement, being clear about what and who I am. I travel light. I am learning the joy of living from the heart, and not from material circumstances. To be in the world, but not of it.

Jupiter in my fourth house of home and family, a place of constant change and revolutionary ideas, as Uranus and Aquarius are always interwoven in my chart. Feeds my creative work. Brings freedom to ideas and self-expression. I am becoming more unconventional, more courageous, more willing to break with the past.

Uranus comes into a seven year cycle this year in my house of romance, so there will be experimentation, new relationships, a rising tide of involvements with those not of my background and culture meant to open new windows into my soul, growth and healing. This is dangerous ground for me, so I keep my daily affirmations close and draw upon the wisdom I have gained so far from Pluto's tour of my second house of self-worth, personal values.

And finally, Saturn, has taken up residence for two and a half years in my house of friends and deepest aspirations. I am being thrust into a heavy period of rubbing up against those souls with whom I share this life, by cosmic design, and those long cherished dreams of mine. It is a beautiful time for me, but one not without pain and sorrow, for we do not always get what we want when we want it, and there is the karmic thread that sometimes violently jerks at our emotions and physical desires. As great as my blessings are, so, too, my sorrows run deep. Thrusting upward, I reach higher than ever before, determined more than ever to manifest my destiny and accomplish my life's purpose. Nothing's going to change my world. I am resolute.

I share this video with you on the day of the full moon. For those of you for whom it resonates, god bless and be at peace as we march confidently into 2010.